I'm trying this new thing
where I fuck up a little more.
It's horrible.
It sucks
a lot.
But I'm learning to live this way now
With more regrets of doing
and less caution
and more saying "screw it"
and then fucking things up a little,
and then trying to get some sleep,
and maybe taking some comfort in knowing
that I'm a little bit more human
than I was the day before
I fucked up
a bit.

(:

(But still, damn it.)